in memory of...

sad news came to the nd community today as news of a fellow colleague who graduated before me passed away over the weekend. suicide. so sad. i remember hanging out with this person in a group setting while in school and seeing this person around, so it's hard to believe this news. it's surreal. what is it that pushes someone to the brink of desperation? that all hope and love and life is lost. to feel that there is nothing left, that there is no one left, and nothing to live for. she was a smiling, happy and bubbly person on the outside, and must have been suffering painfully on the inside. one can only go so far. the visitation and funeral is on thursday in hamilton so i think quite a few people from school will be there. my heart and prayers goes out to the family. i'm really sad to see people take their lives.

at times like this, i feel a dilemma. i'm thankful to God for what i have and what i've been blessed with and cherish the relationships around me. but i also wonder where is God in this? the God who changes lives and gives grace and mercy and love...where was God when she needed it most? i just wonder.

i really pray that faith, hope and love may be experienced by everyone; to feel connected, supported and loved. and i wonder as i reflect, what can i do to help make this world a better place to live in while we're here?

in memory of S.N. rest in peace.